Sometimes I wish I could disappear.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

SWEET SAGA ENDED .

jus finish sms-es with her. n ended up with sorrow.

all these days all were FALSE HOPE

u arent nid to be sad

at least u did sth rightful to u

which is nv like a person whom u dun haf feelings at all

im glad u did the right things

u noe im sad

but the sadness will go away very soon

coz i dun wanna u to sorry sorry sorry ~

baby , im alright . i can cope . alone =)

thx for the show. thx for the time. thx for the switness in the cinema.

without u on tat tuesday night. i would not be so happy this few day

thx for making me feel cared , n loved , for tat 1 n half hour show.

which nobody makes me feel this way this few months

nth last forever is wat i can say~

<3 10:15 PM;

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

SWEET TUESDAY NIGHT

met up with her for movie.. actualli wan watch ghost game. in the end watch american huanting . lame show right gal ? lols..

u promise to cheer me up n make me happy. n u reali did !

i also dunno wat i wan . i also dunno wat u wan , i also dunno wat u can give . n i also dunno wat i can take. sumtimes ur words r nice. sumtimes ur words r hurting . at time i tot u were nice.. but sumtimes u jus pierce me right inside.

lols..

is there still a second time ?

can the time stopped in the cinema ?

i noe everything wont be the same anymore. lols. now is wed .. those sms i receive on tue night n wed is totally different . lols.. haiz.

i noe im not ur type. tats why everythings turn put lidat.
i promise wont fan u de dun worry . keke. jus let nature take it course.

when can i see u again ? 1 on 1 date with me again .
soon ? or never ? . . .

i wan the cinema tat u back !!! god .. pls ..

<3 10:42 PM;

BORING SUNDAY !!!

its last sunday~ nth to do .. then mit up with cck players n kiki at yew tee play soccer. beeyen cums too .. beeyen n kiki so swit .. so jealous can .. i long time no gf swit swit with me le .. damn envy lor.. hope they last long long

then is like so lame lor. wen hui dunno how to jio.. jio until everyone put aeroplane.. left we 4 play 2 on 2 soccer. hahaha.. then go home bath then night go watch bball match at cck cc at teck whye.

then fiona n steph arrive . fiona cums to support her bf ,, wen hui ,.,. lols.. then joanna actually saw wan cum with celine.. then pian ren nv turn up . lols.. also cant blame her la . so late le .. but she should at least let me noe ? haha .. but i still wont blame her.. HAHA..

then saw my best fren ziqun n one of her fren with her.. when i left for home .. still not bad can get to say bye to my best fren . lols. is u bian le lor u nv jio me out . lols.

saw u today !

<3 10:38 PM;

LAST SATURDAY ~

last saturday .. mit up with cck players n xiiao jin n xiiao pearl n fiona .. then go town nor.. then went cuppage plaza play pool.. go cine slack .. took sum neos .. lols.. put at my frenster le.. go see go see !! keke..

then in the end go far east bumming.. then kiki n his stead bee yen joined us .. then we waited for jurong player denny to arrive. but shortly.. we haf to leave le .. coz cck players mostly haf probation de. if not curfew at home. sorry denny mit u awhile nia . . soon mit up for fun yah ..

a lot of thingy of tat day i forgot le.. jus type wat i rem nor.. lols..

xiiao jin be cuming out from malaysia at friday bahz ? this friday i book out in afternoon . everyone can mit up once again. but sadly sunday i haf to book in for camp for duty . haiz..

<3 10:34 PM;

FINANCIAL TRAGEDY ! DOWNPOUR OF MY LIFE !

haiz. im messing up my life once again . money money money .. gambling is games for the riches. so why gamble stupid me . now get myself burned !! terok terok !! happy liao la ah xiinq !! BODOH !!

haiz.. thanks geak yan .. who helped me tru . if not i'll be dead. grateful to u this 20 years of my life. lols.. haiz. shouldnt gamble tat lots again . why m i always restarting my life when my life is getting normal n fine on track ?

y always make a dent myself ? y always back to zero ~

this few days coz of all these.. my mood wont as nice.. sorry dudes who hang out with me which my jokes n jiao wei is not tat funny. coz jus my heart isnt there !

who will be there for me ?
no one ..

<3 10:24 PM;

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

i noe wats the problem..

i noe wats the problem tat not much ppl tags me. coz my tag board r reali fcukin small can ? lols. n wat ppl type i myself cantt see it at all.. hahahaha.. but i dunno how to fix it? any one HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP lols...

oh yah. im very grateful n thank u thank u to CAT aiai.. help me do sucha nice blog. keke.. but tag board a bit strange. will fix it soon de. keke.. aiai forever ~!

<3 12:12 AM;

Monday, August 14, 2006

FAST N FURIOUS (TOKYO DRIFT)

halos everyone.. i jus cum back from tokyo... NAH !! lols.. cum back from watching tokyo drift at lot.. its my 1st time with my life .. i watching it with a guy ONLY.. lols.. n tats kiki. keke..

how things goes. . .
i called nearby PLAYERS for the show.. but then all were at home. so i went ahead to go alone..

at 8.15pm i leave hse to lot n buy ticket ..
then buy liao is ard 8.30pm.. then lame .. the show starts at 9.30pm.. so go buy bubble tea.. n jalan lot 1 alone.. then saw anqi gong zhuu .. talk awhile nia. then she go home liao. then saw kiki.. then he at 9.25pm buy ticket peii me watch . lols. coz he also wan to watch .

he in the show keep sms his dream gal. haha. but as for me i enjoyed the full show. coz as usual .. nobody contact me at all.. my hp no ring at all. although i put the loudest alert. keke. its kinda sad i noe =) but i'll try to fake a luff..

i noe im not any handsums.. i noe im not any talls.. i noe im not any famous.. neither m i any rich.

but reali the world haf to treat me lidat mah ? lols.. fake fake fake . its ok .

and ppl usualli say they cares.. which they dun rreali put anything in action...

n i hate ppl who breach my trust .. u noe who u r .. its my mistake to see wrong of u all..

n tmr its back to hell !!

<3 11:56 PM;

watching movie alone

now is 7.46pm. i damn feel like watching either long hu men or fast n furious today .. so lata i'll be going to lot n watch the 9.15pm or 9.30pm time slot lor..

mostly watch fast n furious bahz.

coz already planned the gals to watch long hu men together at this weekend nor.

// haiz . . actualli can see her* today de. wasted .. all is the hells fault //

<3 7:51 PM;

Sunday, August 13, 2006

today.. although not full COMPANY is out. but then.. we reali haf fun.. take lots foto.. will do my best to upload into bloggy. but den if u all readers cant wait.. then go add me in my frenster . n view those pics. hee..

how should i start .. this afternoon i went lot alone .. was programmeless. due to last min cancellation of concert. n due to all PLAYERS tot im going to concert tats why they no jio me out. tats why i alone went lot. then saw ah cun n xiang bin. then we ate suki sushi buffet. lame lor. eat 1 hour nia. HAHA.

then i went to cuppage plaza find the rest of PLAYERS .. then.. we went to cine.. wah not bad er... at long john they i alone outside makin calls.. moii chloe.. mei xue.. chantel, LI LING (i say she is jacquelin) call wrong. HAHAHAHA damn pai seh nor. sorry li ling~~~ keke.. they cum tok to me nor.. did i miss out 1 more gal name ? lolx..

then after long john.. we jalan cine then go to star bucks bumming.. bought a blueberyy cheese cake. YUMMY~ n an ice caffe mocha Venti. the whip cream was unforgettable. keke..

then after tat we went to far east.. coz i wanna buy my black quarters shorts.. but then unavail.. then.. while we were jalan-ing in far east... jacquelin msg wen hui .. so reminds me of jasmine.. so i gave them a call n we went over cine find them..

reach cine.. the gals were all in the neo-prints shop. then we chatted up n we went fire works together.. was kinda fun. then mit cat n geogina there too . but then sumthing crop up. haiz.

10 mins be4 fireworks starts ... the gals went to the females. then when left 5 mins to 9pm. i was afraid they couldnt make it in time for fireworks. but gam gam ho they arrive. haha.. then france fireworks was not nicer then ITALY can.. no wonder iatly take world cup =Xx hahha

then we all jalan marina square. oh yah.. daniel mit his gan lao po adeline. kinda cute. keke. then we left home together..

the gals went jp.. then we went lot eat be4 heading for home.. daniel send her cutie home be4 he went home. n here i m now haven bath n is uploading pics n writing bloggy . hee..

fun-filled day. I HATE U ALL TAKING AWAY my cap keke !!!!

<3 1:17 AM;

Saturday, August 12, 2006

1st of august.. welcum to the hell.. nth seems nice after i've entered. less time .. more tired.

is god playin with moii life ? why does it seems to be in a mess ?

i can suddenly mood swing when im on my train home alone from hell today.

suddenly i can feel so programmeless.. suddenly i can feel so lonely.

suddenly nobody seems to be replying my sms-es..

ANS MY PRAYERS !! god..

everything jus go hay-wire.. n wat reali sucks is.. tmr is a day for me to enjoy. which i dunno wat can i enjoy n who can i enjoy with.. n well well well... sunday morning back to hell again.

FCUK HELL ` ;; put me back to paradise pls.. although i noe its impossible.

n at sucha wee hours.. i jus dun feel like slping yet.. n i dunno what im doin online.. maybe lata i'll take a walk to yew tee foodcourt n haf a beer.. then walk back home.. now its 1.45am.. maybe 2.30am i'll go?

``tinkin of a sucidal``

<3 1:39 AM;