Sometimes I wish I could disappear.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

TWO HUAI DAN NV STUDY AT MY HSE !!!

grp pic 1

grp pic 2

grp pic 3

moii pian zii

moii wu guii -- i still rem she like orange ! she like my room wall haa

THIS IS THE BEST PIC LA !! MY FAVORITE ~ did u see 6 rabbits ? HAha

Never take them away from mie ~

see moii pian zii ~ she going to dance tok-tok-cheng de dance lolx.. n moii wu guii act cool~

wat both of them trying to do . lolx. im playing with my camera =X

got see my wu guii.. ? shes always ready for shot. not like pian zii =X haa

hoho. GOTCHA ! pian zii wanna stop the camera but nahz~ too late !

zi liianing by pian zii 1

zi liianing by pian zii 2

hahaha.. finally wu guii TOO OVER in pose liao.

this pic they show tongue n teeth !

this pic they close their mouth ~ HAA

Hur HUR~ sms-ing who har? err tat looks like my fone =X

hee. say wan cum my hse study~ pian ren. bring so many tidbits for picnic lor. HAA

wanna hide from camera . i gonna get u two face up lata !!! WATCH OUT

eat hotdog dun dare face camera ? lolx..

finally success in cooking this 2 dish . ALL BY MYSELF !! they nv help hor..
got got .. they help to eat ! huai dan !

<3 12:29 AM;

Sunday, September 24, 2006

hohoho.. back from hell..

lotsa happening happens . but den bu dong ru he suo qi ..

straight go to drinking day yst .. lols

CHIVAS DRINKING !!!

yst .. jingle actually wan go xiao hao hse. not lot 1 tat xiao hao la. another younger de. u all dunno de.. but then in the end xiao hao hse cant go . dunno why . den bo bian she already at yew tee. so join me n jacq n jojo n leonard n kenric drink . lols..

this is gonna be a long post. lols..

me n jingle reach yew tee. kao . i reach ard 11.30pm . which i tell jacq them mit at 10.45pm. was fcukin late . then i tell jojo very sorry make her go home late. so i say i spon her $10 go home. her 1st impression is " NI ZHE YANG HAO AR ? " lols.. say till i very bad lidat .

jojo 1st sentence in real life tok to me sia. say tat hurting sentence liao . hahaha.. jokin la.. coz our 1st outing tat time kan yan hua at marina .. she nv tok to us at all .. act guai .. qi shi .. also talk cock de gal lai de. hahahaz.. lata u all read on will noe liao .

ok .. then i keep say sorry to jacq . was like damn pai seh late so long . then also a bit gan ga . coz this 2 gal 1st time with me mahz. so a bit jing zhang. i also dunno jing zhang for wat ? HAHAHA. maybe wanna be good host bah ? lols. after yst . tink all of us closer le . next time wont so gan ga le i promise. hahaha.. then leonard also reach yew tee with jacq them. then hahaz. was also apologizing to him. then we go 7 11 buy pepsi n green tea. then was tinking dunno jingle n jacq them will click a not.. n turns out not bad.. hahahahaz.. they do tok .. can care for each other when drunk . lols..

ok then bought the drinks le .. head straight to my hse.. then when open the door.. diaoz.. so many ppl ard playing mahjong./ i din expect lor. i expect everyone sleeping at tat hour . lols.. tats totally out of my imagination lor. super shock lor. but cum le lan lan .. so jus all pai-sehly walk into my room HAHAHA.. jojo jingle n jacq the 3 "j"s walk in the livin room .. like jus anyhow greet everyone lor .. " UNCLE AUNTIE UNCLE AUNTIE " hahaha.. can see they dun even dare look longer . jus greet then head straight to my room . hahah.. cute la the 3 Js. lols..

when cum in room. my mum straight say to me at the living room be4 i start preparing the liquor.. she say liao " bu yao he tai duo jiu hor" no wonder is my mum.. she noes im going to drink be4 i say anything . lols IM NOT A SMOKER. IM AN ALCoHOLIC...

den i alone prepare glass.. prepare ice... wah lao .. mei yo ren AUTO cum help me de. all baddie.. lols.. then i go in room. all like library .. no tok de sia.. jus sit ard lying ard stone there.. diaoz.. so awkward can.. then i wan start music.. my speaker cant on . DU LAN lor..
den i open light stick let them see n play . jingle say childish.. then i crack liao 1st light stick she say " eeeee shooo chio lor " haha then she wan take the light stick which i cracked on the bed .. then i snatch away den i say " tot ppl say childish mah "

hahaz.. then jojo n jacq both luff. hahahahaz// then i take out all different colour ... they all crack different de then we off light n see.. but cant see cards n cant see the glass.. so bo bian must on light. lols. then i teach the AH XING game. lols.. all 1st time play . bet all think is so lame right .. hoho.. all kinda drunk in the end lor ... starting is jingle n leonard kip tio.. then follow by jacq .. then follow by jojo then me kaoz.. my 1st glass all sabo me put so many liquor lor. lols. n that JOJO hor.. i tot she is hao ren always put green tea n pepsi . my turn tio she 1st time n only time put liqour sia. then i slowly drink down coz too strong .. jojo beside me still say . " he kuai dian leh " LOLS. bad ass .. then kip go back to leonard n jingle again lols..

then jingle drink until nid rest . then left me jacq jojo n leonard drink . then this time round leonard go rest . n left me jojo n jacq drink . jacq kip kena lor. hahaa.. see her face like the drink is SUPER bitter lidat. hahahaz.. so funny ..

then i kanna . then follow by jojo. then tat 2nd glass is a little liqour only lor.. she still say " wei she mei so strong de " lols.. then slwoly jojo n jacq use same trick. drink the glass liqour .. FOLLOW by bottles of green tea beside hahaha to clear the bitter feeling down the throat yah .. lols..

then hahahah.. got one period... jacq super red liao .. then she keep say wan SUI JIAO. haha. then lie down .. not even few seconds .. the sit up again say .. wan sui jiao .. then lie down again den wake up again . wat the hell .. bet she nv realise ? lols..

then .. jingle n leonard start smokin .. then after smoke leonard go vomit in my toilet.. follow by jacq.. then after awhile.. follow by me .. hahahahz.. then kenric finally arrived at ard 1.30am.
but sadly jojo n jacq leaving le .. then me n jingle send they 2 go down..

then walk until my condo almost gate there.. the drain jacq walk over n vomit .. hahaha.. then jingle hold her..
den jojo beside me... keep say .. " song wo hui jurong leh... pei wo dao jurong leh ... " i wan to send her de lor see her condition lidat . but den i owner cant leave jingle n ken ric n leonard at my hse only mahz. sorry .. haiz.. still guilty bout tat .. owe u a movie treat yah.. hao bu hao . lols.. bu yao jiu sua =P jokin

then ,.. after she vomit .. we sent her to taxi then they go home le .. jacq told me in the cab the jojo also DUNNO ANYHOW LIAO hahahahaz.. wat does jacq words means neh . lols.. u all should noe . tat means jojo drunk. keke.. jojo nv wan admit she drunk only. lols. jus like jingle . nv admit drunk de. lols..

then jingle n me go back .. wah shock sia .. kenric drunk . hahaha. then i ask leonard is it drink with kenric. he say no . kenric drink alone. then drunk so fast liao sia. then he keep say he not drunk then take chivas jus drink nick from the bottles. diao . i stop him . lols.. his throat now burnt. morning wake up he vomit blood . serious ! lols. aiyoyo. he say he nv drink lidat be4 de. lols.. den he drunk he keep say his secret out . but we cant say .. sorr y~~ lols..

then jingle go home . i send her take taxi . then i cum up home then take off contact lens. n BOM lie on bed.. n there .. we 3 guys lie until morning then i wake them up. say ask them go spa n suana with me . they say " ni bu hui qu si gen hao " coz they fcukin drunk cant swim hahahahaha they 2 go home at 10.30 .. haha.

P.s - jacq n jojo n jingle will be my future drink kakis. coz they very steady . HAF fun with u all thx .. n guys .. thx too .

jacq .. u rem we say ... next time jojo SURELY nto tat lucky.. surely make her look drunk n silly-ly right.. keke..

LATA PROGRAMMELESS AGAIN .

<3 10:30 AM;

Sunday, September 10, 2006

n this is my blog. i writes how i feel.

u all dun cum read le then ke lian me say .. ok i surely jio u out de. dun sad. or all these words. i dun nid all these words.

all this ting ting jiu hao. reali cum out le then say .

jus like my off day .. ppl say give me off.. in the end when i ask can leave already mah... ppl can say " lan jiao, who say u can go now "

see .. now i noe le.. everything jus ting ting jiu hao.

<3 5:47 AM;

JUST NOW ~~

jus now walk town.. see everyone walks here walks there so happy enjoying . then i alone. walking n walking. then walk until cinema of cineleisure. then see a couple la ji.. damn... almost cried out nor. but i manage to keep my tears at bay~ cox i dun wan let ppl see a guy sheding tears while walking on the streets . so malu can ..

but i reali cant cope with my emotion. so ji muo u all dunno lor. everyone sms me or on call in my hp all keep say sorry cant acc me tonight last nite.. haiz. expected la ..

n hor... u all dun cum my taggy there n sorry sorry again hor, i dun like. lols. keke.. i dun like to see my frens guilty or sad coz of me . nobodys fault.

im jus a horrible emotional kid.
jus ignore me can le.

<3 5:42 AM;

SEE ! ANOTHER FREN JUS TOLD ME ....
he haf a new gf le..
TERENCE !

see .. why i jus cant find one. lols. jokin nahz. as i say. ITS NOT EASY ~
i noe everyone will post.. slowly wait nah xing. good stuff will come slow.
or ppl will post.. aiya height doesnt matterrs. maybe frens also small size n get theirself wondeful gf..
or ppl will post.. single is good mahz.
all these i listen until sianz le.

even my ex can haf new bfs . jjus called my another ex. also haf new bf also . so happy for her. why everyone gets thingy so easy . i noe ppl will post.. xing.. becoz u nv go find mahz.
or ppl will post.. coz xing u nv go try how u noe cannot.
but isnt lidat leh .. as i say .. its not easy~ bu shi xiang3 xiang4 zhong tat jian dan de.. frens also nan zhao le.. how to find gf ? lols.. i noe ppl will post again.. xing,gf not lidat find de..
i noe la i noe la i reali noe la..

u all dunno wat i wan la. i wan care i wan concern .. not those say " xing takkire ar" so simple.. jus go tru the motion n type in sms only. or say in voice only.. the only true de is from gf .. coz they would be waiting for u . for ur sms .. for ur call .. all these is the true thingy tat i nided.

n if oneday i reali haf a gf le.. ppl will post again,, " xing .. there.. tell u it will comes de. it jus take times.." all these is so sianz lor. so expected lor. but r all these sincere?
i noe take life easy is better . why go stress bout all these.. but hey .. na li yo ren xian money duo de right ? everyone see better thingy will crave for better de. jus like.. i see ppl swit. i also will wan de mahz. ni men bu dong de la.

im not despo.

<3 5:33 AM;

RECENTLY FEELIN DOWN DOWN DOWN

on the streets , saw so many couples.. n ard me .. all my frens getting new gf n so sweet. example.. kiki n beeyen, fiona n wen hui bla bla bla .. all so sweet can. but sad is ki ki kanna lock up. n wen hui go remand 3 weeks. after i sailing 2 weeks cum back. he would be out too.

then jus now mit wink wink. she also tok bout her bf. n my ex hui ting also found herself a bf . everyone so swit. haiz.. feel like having a gf sia. but its not easy . for those handsum out there r easy to haf flings n gf. but for me. everything is diff. ! u all always say ah xiinq haf many frens de mahz. yah .. but then .. tats on the surface. hee. its hard to keep on faking smiles ? who reali can make me happy. so many months le yet no 1 reali appears right.

n oh oh oh .. maybe i cant say it lidat . makes me sounds a real despo for gf. but reali nahz. see those switness ppl haf . those frens . those strangers. damn ! reali make me feel craving for one gf . long time mei yo tan lian ai de gan jue le. but its not easy for me la. i small size. im a boring guy. im nth !

tink after the 2 weeks sailing cum back. wont be going out often bahz. one point is going out is expensive. coz i always like to enjoy fun n eat nice food nice driink . lols.. 2nd point is .. going out makes me feels more lonely. jus like jus now at town lidat . see ppl smiling.. enjoying .. kip asking myself why i cant be like them.

n ppl out there .. instead of kip di siaoing me .. which i dun reali mind.. but when can u all seriously treat me as a close fren n always rem me when theres outing ? n haf fun with me instead of keep mocking me which u all tink is fun ? when actually u all over done it when i mind it alittle ?

we can be more closer dude ! but pls change . keke. im a nice guy . so get the best outta me. not everyday bout heights all tat kk ? sick sick sick ..

<3 5:22 AM;

2 weeks wont be in sg !!

leaving on sun morning 10th sep to 22nd then cum back. fcuking long can ? nv leave sg or hse for so long. haiz. worried~ n sianz. leave for sailing to tioman. a lousy place of malaysia. no shopping nth .. only got a lousy pub. n a lot of water sports. but nahz.. dun tink i'll play any . but they say the sea there fcukin clear n blue... if can will take pic pic..

then jus now be4 met up with wink wink. whole afternoon i play soccer at riverside sec with staff kuna time. cochise fc. opponent nv turn up so we play on our own. performance today not bad, hee.. then score one ku ku ball.. the keeper nv hold on to it well n lose it. i jus tap it inside. LAME~ but goal means goal la. lols..

then rush home coz its last night in sg so must enjoy. then go to town alone. saw yuan ping hui hui sally xiao sa them. n also saw jurong players . they all like couple couple lidat . n they ask me join them.. nahz.. next time bahz. lols.. then i alone walk lor..then walk till jia swan lor. then xiao sa suddenly sms me when she go home.. say she nv take pic with me RARR .. but dunno true a not wan take pic with me.. skali say say only. lols.. =X coz seldom got ppl say wan take pic with me de sia. lols. den reach lot then contact wink to mit lor. thanks wink for miting me.

<3 5:14 AM;

LAST NIGHT IN SG BE4 sailing.

guess who peii me in the end ? wink wink !!!!!!!!!!!!! celest~ lols..
we go for the movie pulse. not very nice. lame. lols.. then after the show we eat mac.. then chat our hearts out behind lot 1. met up her at 11am.. then send her home at 4am.

<3 5:10 AM;

CLUB MOMO ~!

meet up with pei lin coz she wanna see adrian at kbox of lot 1. then she bring a gal call selina too.. then bu zhi bu jue me n selina tok a lot. then pei lin keep listening to moii mp4. then on our way to momo.. selina forget to bring ic. so we go back woodland n take then took cab to momo lor.

then at momo saw jurong players there.. with jacq n fiona.. then went in n dance lor.. kaoz. no liquor at call even enuff age sia. so sianz. how to enjoy the dance if no HIGH at all sia. then slowly.. pei lin n selina dance with another grp of guys.

then i slowly left out then jus stand at the bar there lor. sianz. lols.. but they enjoy can le nahz. then players ask me why i alone .. i say my gals r dancing with other guys . haa.. players did ask me join them but nahz.. nvm nahz. they should enjoy themselves too. shouldnt spoil their mood. lols..

then pei lin msg me " xing where u"
then i reply " haa. u all enjoy nor. dun disturb me. im dancing with a gal too. lols "
but then the fact is i alone stand there nia. lols.. staring into blank.

then 15 mins lata pei lin n selina walk the whole momo to find me. they caught me alone. they noe im lying to them tat im with gal jus now. lols. they ask me then i say coz i dun wan them to worry n wont enjoy mahz./ i din noe myself is sucha gd guy tat wei ren zhuo xiang also .. weets~ haa.. KNS ~

then me n selina n pei lin dance together awhile.. then.. they GONE ~ again.. haa.. so i went home taking cab alone. reach hm ard 2.30am but the party ends at 4? lols...

nvm nahz. coz i gotta rest for hell tat few hours lata also. haa.

i dun belong~!

<3 5:00 AM;

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

STRAIGHT AFTER TON
~ i reach home in the aftertoon ard 1 pm? then .. i straight on my com msn as usual while i go bath all tat . then chatted up with shuana .. coz saw her nick,, " preparing , meeting yuanping n huihui go out"

n after i saw tat .. im damn energetic. wanna go out with them.. so bored alone staying home although tired after ton. so seek shuana permission n she allows me to tag a long . so i 2.30 lidat reach west mall meet they 3 .. then went for meals at food court of west mall .

n hell.. when shuana is drawing out money . an uncle guess yuan ping is 16 ... she like damn fcukin happy lor. hahahhaa.. so cute.. then the uncle guess me 17-18 . hahahaz.. they luff till peng. then from this moments onwards.. they 3 keep disturbing me bout the noel n xiao mei mei thingy till the whole trips ends. lols..

then after we haf our meals at food court. we take 945 bus to guilin view. n indeed .. in the bus ,.. they 3 keep di siao me non stop lor.. buay ta han .. but lan lan must LUN. lols..

since i very tired le .. the whole trip until ends.. i din reali joke that much like how i usually do.. guess only shuana wil lrealise bahz.. coz yuan ping n hui hui seldom hear me jiao wei when im REALLY myself be4. lols..

then we change up wan swim le .. then got a guy call marcus.. guang mao . sth lidat la.. ride bike cum meet them. not bad lor .. quite shuai .. his dimple very deep. so envy lor. hes enlisting in 5 sir at panjang camp this friday too .. same as andrew. so qiao lor. but bet they wotn noe each other nahz,. lols

then we carry on our swimming. yuan ping say i very fat . lols.. coz i got tummy .. beer belly mahz. IMMA ALCHOHOLIC tats why. hahaha.. n navy doesnt pumping .. doesnt marching all tat .. so .. my physical was down down down . lols.. im like pregnant for half a month ? lols.. HHAHAHA

then shuana maid bring the big wild wild wet look-alike float down for us to play . yuan ping n huihui ask me sit on it .. n they flip me over. kao .. when they flip the second time which is reverse de.. i drank so much chlorine k ... lols but its fun la..

then when i say its fun... yuan ping also gian play . then we flip her. haha . she so scared. tbut then in the end she also say fun . huihui buay sporty dun dare play . haha

then after tat they go steam bath . which is in ladies toilet. i one guy there cant go in . so lan lan change up n wait for them to enjoy finish . coz its very lame if im alone steam in the male toilet right ? lols.. so i slp in the club hse for half hour then they cum out . lols..

then we play pool... hahaz.. teaching yuan ping shoot.. but she lotsa crapz la.. always blame me teach no gd . hahaz..

actually wan order pizza hut de.. then .. shuajna donno the postal code so cant order liao .. then actually wan go westmall eat pizza hut de. in the end yuan ping n huihui tot of theirs guys.. then called up them n ask where were them . tink i overheard is wat arena de. n they going to find them taking cab so not going pizza anymore.

so the 2 left to take cab to find their guys ,. . . then shuana wait for her parents fetch her ,.. then i alone take train then alone eat at yew tee food court then alone now here at home lor .. waitinf for tmr hell to arrive.

haa.. whole day those gals were toking bout cute guys n handsum guys .. lols.. n they were like cant wait to meet them also . so gd horr be handsum guys,.,. got gurls go GAGA over them . n will auto find them ,.

unlike me those ugly ducklings haf to find our own programs .. n whole day the handfone can like dun even haf an sms cuming in... tats very sad kk ,.,, handsum guys dun feel this way~ so u all wont understand ..

n shitt, today din get to take any pics. the gals were taking all alone themself. hahahaz.. i so extra .. inside heard keep waiting to hear " xing , i take with u "
haha.. but this sentence nv cums .. n cannot be we buay ba say we wan take together right ?
but handsum guys .. straight got gurls say wan take with them de.. UNFAIRRR ~~ HAA

this is my blog. i writes how i feels !!! LOLS..

handsum guys get gurls to tok on fone with them or conference everynight ..but ugly ducklings always slp earli . or staring into their msn screen waiting for ppl to teng deng deng them. lols. while handsum guys online strauight so many ppl tok..

UGLY DUCKLINGS GET NTHS.

<3 8:26 PM;

TONNING on monday night

its a monday afternoon.. i got released from hell few hours early ..

n tues is my off day . so i decided to ton tonight. so i call up my CONFIRM can ton de kaki ,.. which is terence andrew them.. east side de.. tampines. lols..

then i go home bath then rush to meet eleanor at town pei her work ,.. then kelvin also there.. then we chit chat then time flew then we go to tampines for our ton lor..

then .. when we reach tampines.. theres a new gurl .. named pei lin aka madelin . so total we haf .. elfie me terence andrew eleanor n madelin. sebas slowly join us after tat n leave after he setlle their so call problems.

din manage to tok n make fren with sebas. next time bahz..

then at festival park sing song as usual. then shifted a lot of place.. we drink carlsberg . then eat prata all tat .. then after eat prata eleanor very tired so she go home le.. then left few of us at festival park. then xiao yang join us ,. weets .. so many new frens .,,, good good. then morning treated them all to breakfast .. then we leave for home ..

-tired-

<3 8:18 PM;

CALL ME LAZII

lols.. i got myself a christian name.. LAZII

pronounce as lazy . cool right ?

how does this name comes about.

that day i went church bbq with kenric. then all the ppl there is like speaking english ? n all like got christian name .. lols.. so i told kenric be4 hand tat.. if they ask me introduce.. i would say my name is lazii . stylo right. lols

then reali .. after i intro myself.. everyone was asking whether its my reali name. n they say its so unique. lols.. ok la .. so i stick with this .. LAZII

haha. but then .. outside world ppl still call me ah xing de la .. surely de. coz no one will get use calling me LAZII.. unless they di siao me using LAZII la . lols..

example is like ... purposely they cum towards me n say " LAZIIIII " hahahaha.. surely de ..

<3 8:04 PM;