Wednesday, February 21, 2007
u ask me go pub. i was so happy upon hearing it. i tot u wish to see me tats why. so.. i went home, bath then fly down. when i reach . i realise everything is jus so different already. jus feel so far. further then frens. the whole pub session u din even tok to me more then 10 sentence. n when i heard she tell me tat u meeting ur BF soon... 2 things cums to my mind. 1st... wah.. so fast haf bf already. 2nd .... den u ask me cum for wat ? den suddenly, ans od second question came up to my mind. u ask me cum is to make us feel tat we r still frens. dun nid to avoid each otherlike recently. so when i 1st ans ur fone call earlier.. yuan lai all is my wishful thinking tat u wan to see me. HAA. cant believe im so stupid la. haiz. smiling silly-ly to myself when i tink of tat. N when she n u tok n joke ard.. all of the guys name u all mentioned.. were so far. let me feel tat im not even in ur world. lols. she always say i tink alot.
slowly,, i feel like gettin drunk n vomit all tat. but nahz. after i losee 500 in CNY gambling.. i dun haf the cash to open bottle already. haiz. its even more sad when i cant get (drunk) wat i wan. oh yah, tat reminds me again how silly m i to borrow from my real younger bro. coz i lose every single cents in black jack. weiii le ni then i borrow money de k . lols. but useless la. silly me. ah xiinq sad, ah xiinq not happy !! 2007 is a fcuking lousy year for me. jus nth goes right. eevery arrow seems to be pointing towards me. so sharp, so pain so scary. i cant cope alone.. haiz. but i haf to........
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